The Long-Winded Lady
by Emily Pecora, in the Autumn 2008 issue of Polite Magazine
The Long-Winded Lady, she called herself. She lived alone for
most of her adult life, in hotel rooms and one- and two-room apartments
in the Times Square and Greenwich Village neighborhoods of New York
City. She hated hot weather, and how cars looked parked bumper to
bumper on residential streets, and the long, wide commercial blocks of
Sixth Avenue. She liked pigeons, and restaurants with views of the
street, and the short, narrow commercial blocks of Madison Avenue,
about which she once said: Heaven forbid that there should ever be a
riot in the city, but if there is I will go straight over to Madison
Avenue with my stone or brick and I will shut my eyes and just throw,
because there is hardly a window along there that does not contain
something I would like to have.
She once ordered broccoli with sauce supreme in a restaurant with
windows facing Madison Avenue, and could not decide, when it arrived,
whether she should pour the sauce on the stalks or the leaves, and so
left it untouched on her plate, and felt grateful to the waiter for
making no comment as he cleared it away. She once handed her taxi money
to a poor woman selling shoe laces on the street, only to be followed
by the woman, moaning Its too much, until she grabbed the money back
from her and hurried away. She once declined a seat on a crowded A
train, telling the man whod offered that she was getting off at the
next stop; when the next stop came, she realized that it was the next
stop she needed; when that stop came, she realized that shed wanted
the previous stop after all. Sometimes, she reflected, it is very
hard to know the right thing to do.
These anecdotes, these opinions are what the journalist Maeve Brennan
offered of herself to the world, in the form of a Talkof the Town
column that appeared in the New Yorker magazine during the 1950s and
60s, written under the Long-Winded Lady pseudonym. (In 1969, these
pieces were compiled in a book, titled The Long-Winded Lady: Notes from
the New Yorker.) Most Talk of the Town pieces can be described as as
chatty, cocktail-talk journalismcharacter sketches of minor
celebrities or notes from the meetings of niche organizations, written
in a madcap, isnt-city-life- funny style. The Long-Winded Lady pieces,
however, are not madcap. They are mournful. It is not only hard to know
the right thing to do in Maeve Brennans version of New York City, but
also hard to know where to live or how to live, what to seek and what
to avoid. It is even harder to leave.
Maeve Brennan was born in Dublin in 1917. She moved to Washington, D.C.
with her parents and three siblings when her father was named secretary
of the Irish legation in 1934. From Washington, she moved to New York
City, and, within New York, shifted herself and her cat (sometimes
cats) from rented room to rented room. Like many New Yorkers, she
assiduously believed that contentment could be leased or rented in the
form of more charming accommodations; like many New Yorkers, she made
foolish financial decisions because of this hope. She put parquet
floors in a city apartment she did not own, her friend and New Yorker
co-worker William Maxwell once wrote, and then found that she
preferred living in the Hotel Algonquin, leaving the apartment empty
until the lease expired. Occasionally, she would leave for the
countryLong Island or the northern reaches of New Englandbut she
always came back.
I think of New York as the capsized city, she wrote in the
introduction to The Long-Winded Lady. Half-capsized, anyway, with the
inhabitants hanging on, most of them still able to laugh as they cling
to the island that is their lifes predicament. At her best, Brennan
perfectly captures her subjects small attempts at hanging on. Her
columns are a catalog of small moments and imperceptible gesturesa
young man in a restaurant phone booth reading the entire menu to a
girlfriend, his expression intent on somethingone thingand
indifferent to everything else; a young woman in a tight dress walking
down Broadway on a Saturday night, carrying a small, clear purse
containing nothing but one tube of lipstick. Manhattan, as they say, is
the city that never sleeps; Brennans subjects are always unwittingly
revealing that the race is making them tired.
New York blends the gift of privacy with the excitement of
participation, E. B. White writes in Here is New York. The Long-Winded
Lady cherishes the former over the latter. She lives alone, walks
alone, and eats alonealways bringing a book with her into a restaurant
because it diverts me when there is nothing to listen to and
camouflages my eavesdropping when there is something to listen to. As
a reporter and onlooker, she is extremely respectful of her subjects
private thoughts and larger lives. She never follows people, never uses
even first names, never speculates on motives or emotions or countries
of originanything that might have made them as they are today.
She dislikes pushiness and showiness so completely that she is
delighted to see a loud-mouthed patron fall off his chair in a diner,
and resents the Empire State Building for trying to be on nudging
terms with every other building in the city. When, at a favorite
restaurant, a tall young man who had made a great deal of fuss over
his briefcase when he came in invites her to have a drink with him,
she tells him that she is waiting for someone. I was sitting at table
for one, she notes.
In Homesick at the New Yorker, the sole published biography of Maeve
Brennan, Angela Bourke characterizes Brennans late adolescence and
early adulthood as a period of disappointment in love, and speculates
that her introversion was the result of something as old-fashioned as
a broken heart. Brennan herself puts it somewhat differently. After
describing a man she sees on the street who is always combing his hair,
once while using a friends sunglasses as a mirror, she confesses, I
know we are all only reminders of one another, but I dont want him to
walk up to me and look into my face as though I were a mirror. What I
would like even less would be to look into his face and see myself
hiding there.
In 1954, at the age of 37, Maeve Brennan became the fourth wife of
fellow New Yorker writer St. Clair McKelway. A brilliant reporter and
sparklingly witty party guest, McKelway was also an acknowledged manic
depressive and alcoholic. It may not have been the worst of all
possible marriages, William Maxwell said of the match, but it wasnt
something you could be hopeful about.
The couple moved to an artistic, upper-class Hudson River enclave
called Snedens Landing, which Brennan renames Herberts Retreat in a
series of stories she wrote during her marriage. The Herberts Retreat
stories are very different from the rest of Brennans output. They are
busy and satirical, full of dialogue, divorce, servants, and parties.
In a few sentences, these characters reveal more of their private
thoughts and feelings than her other characters do in hundreds of pages
worth of small actions and stalled glances. But their confessions seem
boastful and false.
These characters announce rather than reveal, emote rather than feel.
The author explains too explicitly, describes too specifically,
palpably struggles to create the impression of a connection between
author and subject. The connection never materializes. William Maxwell
commented that her Herberts Retreat stories seem to me to be
heavy-handed and lack the breath of life. Brennan had found characters
she could look directly into the faces of; she did not see herself
hiding there.
When the couple divorced after five years of marriage, Brennan moved
back to New York City. The majority of the Long-Winded Lady columns
compiled in the 1969 book, self-selected as Brennans best, were
written in the 15 years following her divorce. When she returned to New
York for good, the city she returned to was transforming.
In the neighborhood west of Times Square where Brennan often rented her
hotel rooms, single-family brownstones were being razed three and four
at a time to make room for the sleek, modern skyscrapers that now
characterize midtown Manhattan. In Greenwich Village, Brennans other
favorite neighborhood, boxy modern apartment buildings were rapidly
replacing the small apartment houses that had been renting rooms for
over 100 years. The Long-Winded Lady mourns the loss of specific
establishmentsa familiar French restaurant relocates to Long Island
when its brownstone home is razed, a cozy 8th Street bookstore moves
two blocks west because of the skyrocketing rentsand she mourns the
loss of a felt sense and spatial experience of living in New York,
shopping in New York, walking down the citys streets.
Most basically, she regrets the new architecture, which she derisively
calls Office Space, for not existing on a human scale. Crammed with
small enterprises of every description, the old side streets were
places for exploring, wondering, sampling. They were what people
thought of when they thought of their lives in the city, the addresses
and names with which they described their afternoon errands and evening
meals.
We ordinary New Yorkers were kings and lords in all those places, even
where the owner pretended to be surly, even where he really was surly,
she wrote. We could pick and choose and find our favorites, and so
enjoy one of the normal ways of making ourselves at home in the city.
The new, noseless architecture displaces these businesses, and
obliterate this sense of command and possibility, this way of feeling
alive: But more and more the architecture of this city has nothing to
do with our daily lives. The Office Space giants that are going up all
over Manhattan are blind above the ground, and on the ground level they
are given over to banks and to showrooms and to businesses run by
remote control by companies and corporations rich enough to afford the
staggering rents.
With fewer restaurant and apartment windows from which to watch
passersby come fewer opportunities to combine participation with
privacy, to feel both a part of and safe from the masses of people that
crowd the streets. Along with this loss of safe observation comes a
loss of sensed individualization. A New Yorker with no corner from
which to quietly observe others is also a New Yorker who knows that no
one is in a corner quietly observing. In this new New York, the
individual must make a big noise, put on a big show, if he or she wants
to stand out from the crowd.
All is makeshift on Forty-ninth Street, she muses while walking home
from dinner one night, and even the old brownstones, so beautifully
proportioned and presenting such a pure outline against the high, calm
evening sky of summer, seem part of a stage set designed to illustrate
the shaky and vanishing side of New York City. As she walks, she comes
upon five tall girls standing in a group on the sidewalk. The girls are
wearing tiny, sheer shifts which barely covered their behinds and
seemed designed to show even more leg than they had. The crowd parts
around them, everyone watching, laughing, sneering. One little old
lady, extremely excited, moves from person to person, exclaiming Did
you see those bums? Did you see those bums?
The Long-Winded Lady hurries to get away from her. Although she doesnt
think much of those sort of girlsthey looked as though they had been
assembled, legs and all, in an automobile factoryshe does not want to
stand on the street ridiculing them, either. As she walks away, she
thinks about the girls, and what they represent: They didnt go with
the street at all. They were ahead of themselves by a year or two. They
will go better with the new buildings.
Maeve Brennan struggled with mental illness and alcoholism from the
1970s until her death in 1993. No longer writing and no longer able to
pay rent, she slept and bathed in the ladies bathroom at the New Yorker
offices for many years. Many men and women found Maeve charming, and
she was a true friend, but there wasnt much you could do to save her
from herself, her old friend William Maxwell once wrote. Maxwell had
saved a copy of a mock response that Brennan had written (but never
mailed), in response to a fan letter that was sent to the magazine on
her behalf. In it, she reports that the writer Maeve Brennan has shot
herself and been discovered in the poor box in St. Patricks Cathedral.
We will never know why she did what she did (shooting herself) but we
think it was because she was drunk and heartsick, she writes. She was
a very fine person, a very real person, two feet, hands, everything.
But its too late to do much about that now.
In the authors note that prefaces the pieces collected in The
Long-Winded Lady, Maeve Brennan writes, Somebody said, We are real
only in moments of kindness. Moments of kindness, moments of
recognitionif there is a difference, it is a faint one. I think the
Long-Winded Lady is real when she writes, here, about some of the
sights she saw in the city she loves. Even as the city changed, the
Long-Winded Lady continuedsometimes to her own surpriseto rediscover
it as a place where others could be real, and where she could thus be
kind.
She is in a bad mood, walking in a crowd on Forty-fourth Street,
thinking to herself that sometimes the city seems actually to
disapprove of people, thinking All of these people are sheep and I am
a sheep. And then, in the middle of this gloom, a young man catches
her eye. He is very tall, fat and untidy in a tweed jacket that was
too short for him. He is calling out Father! Father!, hurrying past
her to meet a middle-aged man waiting on a corner. She watches the
father and son reunite, watches the fathers pursed lips, half formal
and half shy break into a grin. They walk down the street away from
her, the son talking excitedly, getting in the way just as he must
have done not long ago, when he was a small boy.
The Long-Winded Lady speculates that they are going out to dinner
somewhere, maybe to the Howard Johnsons at Forty-sixth Street. That
is a nice place, she admits, especially if you get near the window,
so that you can look out at the crowd passing and see that, at a little
distance, there are no sheep on Broadway.
Emily Pecora
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